Perfect for fans of Jojo Moyes’s, Me Before You, My Last Love Story is a heartbreakingly romantic tale about the complexities of trauma and whether love can right a wrong.
My Last Love Story is a ‘heartbreakingly romantic tale’. I find it difficult to write about depressing issues. How do you manage?
Let me start by pointing out that heartbreakingly romantic does not mean depressing. It means epic—like Romeo and Juliet, The Fault In Our Stars and Me Before You. There are sad moments in the book, but there are sad moments in life too. And, for me, a good romance has to break my heart or its not worth reading. I love to laugh through my tears.
However, I know what you mean and agree that topics such as trauma, death and disease are difficult to write. My Last Love Story was hard to create and I often wept while writing it. But my personal writing style is uplifting and humorous, so while I wrote about tragedy, I had the right amount of comedy going on to lighten the prose.
Describe My Last Love Story in 140 characters (also known as a tweet).
A fate-battered woman learns to brave life again at the insistence of her dying husband. She does so on Jet Skis, too.
If you could exchange lives with any of your characters for a day which character would you choose and why?
Such a great question and so difficult to answer. I want to say Simeen because she’s going through so much—they all are—but I’ve been in her head for much too long. I’ll choose Zayaan. He’s a quiet one with his smexy good looks and that heart of pure gold. I want to feel super smart like him. I want to understand what being devout means. I want to know what he thinks and feels about Marjaneh Sharokhi. We don’t get to see that relationship because we’re in Simi’s head and Zayaan never spoke about Marjaneh to her. Zayaan would be an interesting man to exchange lives with—lots of secrets there.
What’s the most amusing thing that happened to you while writing My Last Love Story?
So, there’s a scene with a baby seal in the book. I always have an animal or two in my books as I’m a zookeeper at heart and when I stumbled on some YouTube videos of seals interacting with humans, I was bowled over. It’s the cutest thing to see. I discussed the scene with a friend for plausibility and we were both in splits as we ran down a whole list of scenarios of how I can squeeze maximum cuteness from the seal scene. I kept laughing while writing and editing it, and even now it’s one of my favorite passages to read.
Say your publisher has offered to fly you anywhere in the world to do research on an upcoming book, where would you most likely want to go?
The Himalayas, which is where my next two books will be set. I believe the best times to go to Garhwal and/ or Tons Valley is in October.
What’s your favorite part about the writing process?
The writing. I enjoy stringing words together and molding scenes for maximum effect. I love creating unforgettable characters and giving them quirks. I find the process of writing very therapeutic.
Tell us about your next release. And when can we expect it?
I’m in contract with Om Books, India, for Books 2 and 3 of the Age of Kali, a myth-based fantasy series. Book 1 is titled Soul Warrior and is available everywhere except South Asia for the moment. I don’t know the schedules for books 2 and 3 yet, but I’m hoping Book 2 will come out by late 2017.
“Love is a dish best served naked.”As a child, those oft-quoted words of my father would have me rolling my eyes and pretending to gag at what I’d imagined was my parents’ precursor to a certain physical act.At thirty, I’d long ago realized that getting naked wasn’t a euphemism for sex.Neither was love.It wasn’t my father wording the meme just now but my husband. Nirvaan considered himself a great wit, a New Age philosopher. On the best of days, he was, much like Daddy had been. On the worst days, he was my tormentor.“What do you think, Dr. Archer? Interesting enough tagline for a vlog? What about ‘Baby in a Petri Dish’?” Nirvaan persisted in eliciting a response from the doctor and/or me for his ad hoc comedy, which we’d been ignoring for several minutes now.I wanted to glare at him, beg him to shut up, or demand that he wait in the doctor’s office like he should’ve done, like a normal husband would have. Khodai knows why he’d insisted on holding my hand through this preliminary checkup. Nothing of import would happen today—if it did at all. But I couldn’t perform any such communication, not with my eyes and mouth squeezed shut while I suffered through a series of uncomfortable twinges along my nether regions.I lay flat on my back on a spongy clinic bed sheeted with paper already wrinkled and half torn. Legs drawn up and spread apart, my heels dug punishingly into cold iron stirrups to allow my gynecologist’s clever fingers to reach inside my womb and check if everything was A-OK in there. We’d already funneled through the Pap test and stomach and chest checks. Like them, this test, too, was going swell in light of Dr. Archer’s approving happy hums.“Excellent, Mrs. Desai. All parts are where they should be,” he joked only as a doctor could.I shuddered out the breath I’d been holding, as the feeling of being stretched left my body. Nirvaan squeezed my hand and planted a smacking kiss on my forehead. I opened my eyes and focused on his beaming upside-down ones. His eyelids barely grew lashes anymore—I’d counted twenty-seven in total just last week—the effect of years of chemotherapy. For a second, my gaze blurred, my heart wavered, and I almost cried.What are we doing, Nirvaan? What in Khodai’s name were we starting?Nirvaan stroked my hair, his pitch-black pupils steady and knowing and oh-so stubborn. Then, his face rose to the stark white ceiling, and all I saw was the green-and-blue mesh of his gingham shirt—the overlapping threads, the crisscross weaves, a pattern without end.Life is what you make it, child. It was another one of my father’s truisms.Swallowing the questions twirling on my tongue, I refocused my mind on why we were here. I’d promised Nirvaan we’d try for a baby if he agreed to another round of cancer-blasting treatments. I’d bartered for a few more months of my husband’s life. He’d bartered for immortality through our child.Dr. Archer rolled away from between my legs to the computer station. He snapped off and disposed of the latex gloves. Then, he began typing notes in near-soundless staccato clicks. Though the examination was finished, I knew better than to sit up until he gave me leave. I’d been here before, done this before—two years ago when Nirvaan had been in remission and the idea of having a baby had wormed its way into his head. We’d tried the most basic procedures then, whatever our medical coverage had allowed. We hadn’t been desperate yet to use our own money, which we shouldn’t be touching even now. We needed every penny we had for emergencies and alternative treatments, but try budging my husband once he’d made up his mind.“I’m a businessman, Simi. I only pour money into a sure thing,” he rebuked when I argued.I brought my legs together, manufacturing what poise and modesty I could, and pulled the sea-green hospital gown bunched beneath my bottom across my half-naked body. I refused to look at my husband as I wriggled about, positive his expression would be pregnant with irony, if not fully smirking. And kudos to him for not jumping in to help me like I would have.The tables had turned on us today. For the past five years, it’d been Nirvaan thrashing about on hospital beds, trying in vain to find relief and comfort, modesty or release. Nirvaan had been poked, prodded, sliced, and bled as he battled aggressive non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. I’d been the stoic spectator, the supportive wife, the incompetent nurse, the ineffectual lover.And now? What role would I play now?As always, thinking about our life left me feeling even more naked than I was in the open-fronted robe. I turned my face to the wall, my eyes stinging, as fear and frustration bubbled to the surface. Flesh-toned posters of laughing babies, pregnant mothers, and love-struck fathers hung from the bluish walls. Side by side were the more educative ones of human anatomy, vivisected and whole. The test-tube-like exam room of Monterey Bay Fertility Clinic was decorated in true California beach colors—sea-foam walls, sandy floors, pearl-pink curtains, and furniture—bringing the outdoors in. If the decor was meant to be homey, it wasn’t having such an effect on me. This room, like this town and even this country, was not my natural habitat, and I felt out of my element in it.I’d lived in California for seven years now, ever since my marriage, and I still didn’t think of it as home, not like Nirvaan did. Home for me was India. And no matter the dark memories it held, home would always be Surat.“All done.” Dr. Archer pushed the computer trolley away and stood up. “You can get dressed, Mrs. Desai. Take your time. Use whatever supplies you need. We’ll wait for you in my office,” he said, smiling.Finally, I can cover myself, I thought. Gooseflesh had erupted across my skin due to the near frigid clinic temperatures doctors tortured their patients with—like a patient didn’t have enough to suffer already. Medical facilities maintained cool indoor temperatures to deter inveterate germs from contaminating the premises and so its vast flotilla of equipment didn’t fry. I knew that. But knowing it still didn’t inspire any warm feelings in me for the “throng of professional sadists with a god complex.” I quoted my husband there.Nirvaan captured my attention with a pat on my head. “See you soon, baby,” he said, following the doctor out of the room.I scooted off the bed as soon as the door shut behind them. My hair tumbled down my face and shoulders at my jerky movements. I smoothed it back with shaking hands. Long, wavy, and a deep chestnut shade, my hair was my crowning glory, my one and only feature that was lush and arresting. Nirvaan loved my hair. I wasn’t to cut it or even braid it in his presence, and so it often got hopelessly knotted.I shrugged off the clinic gown, balled it up, and placed it on the bed. I wiped myself again and again with antiseptic wipes, baby wipes, and paper towels until the tissues came away stain-free. I didn’t feel light-headed. I didn’t allow myself to freak. I concentrated on the flow of my breaths and the pounding of my heart until they both slowed to normal.It was okay. I was not walking out with a gift-wrapped baby in tow. Not today. No reason to freak out.I reached for my clothes and slipped on my underwear. They were beige with tiny white hearts on them—Victoria’s Secret lingerie Nirvaan had leered and whistled at this morning.Such a silly man. Typical Nirvaan, I corrected, twisting my lips.Even after dressing in red-wash jeans and a full-sleeved sweater, I shivered. My womb still felt invaded and odd. As I stepped into my red patent leather pumps, an unused Petri dish sitting on the workstation countertop caught my eye.The trigger for Nirvaan’s impromptu comedy, perhaps?Despite major misgivings about the Hitleresque direction my life had taken, humor got the better of me, and I grinned.Silly, silly Nirvaan. Baby in a Petri dish, indeed.